What I want to do

I guess if I had a passion it would be empowering woman, I grew up in a home of broken woman, being what was needed for them, I hated how the world had mad them lose trust in themselves, and seem to ignore what they really needed, but as a child I was helpless and I hated that feeling, to understand, to know, to see, yet unable to communicate or connect or help the ones around me I did what I could I suppressed myself and let them blame me for everything, I never thought I would be abandoned by the same people and when I was I had nothing of me left and killed myself only to wake up angry at God or whatever the hell this asshole who controls things is, just let me disappear, I was useless and unable to help the ones I loved, I was unable to do anything right, I could talk right, I could get anyone to listen or understand what I was saying and it felt like when I expressed myself I was punished by the world, I let my mother die thinking I didn’t love her, my grandmother died hating herself, and you won’t let me give up because I want to. Noone really knew what I had done and noone even noticed the emptiness inside of me after that, as I went through life I learned so much from others, and I learned that most blamed there pain or refused to acknowledge there past, it controlled them and made them relive it over and over. That peoples ability to think was hindered because life has become so routine, most of all I want to help woman understand themselves because I don’t think anyone in a long time has every even given woman the respect they deserve, not I money or material things but in the faith in unknown and the trust they have in themselves to be so confident in what they know that there able to be what someone else needs and show them who they are and never lose themselves, the strength it takes to do so much for someone who more then likly will never understand what was done for them only move forward in life with a true sense of self allowing them to find love.